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Self-Diagnosis Being Self-Preservation

Blog by Georgia Holliday

Why self-diagnosis is self-preservation.

During the pandemic I did what everyone did and downloaded TikTok. This led me down a lot of self-realisation rabbit holes and made me deeply question my reality and who I was. After months of scrolling and ah-ha moments I realised not only was a bisexual, I also had ADHD (and a few short months later I would come to realise I was also autistic). At this point I was not clinically diagnosed but I knew in my soul these labels matched my lived experience, scarily well. So I (nervously) began to self-identify and ‘come out’ to people in my life that I wanted to share this with.

I started posting my lived experience on TikTok as a way to process everything I was learning about myself (alongside therapy) and connect with other people in the neurodivergent community so I didn’t feel so alone. Somehow my account quickly gained traction and I built a big following. This meant I also came up against a lot of backlash (mainly from neurotypical and allistic people) saying self-diagnosis was not valid. At first this was hugely detrimental to my mental health and made me question everything I thought I had privately figured out about myself (hello RSD). But I recovered (through more therapy) and it made me even more passionate about advocating for the validity of self-diagnosis because in my experience it was actually self-preservation. Had I not self-diagnosed with ADHD and autism (TW) I may not still be here today. Prior to this revelation I had spent my whole life thinking there was something wrong with me and that I didn’t fit into this world. There were many times where I wanted to fall asleep and not wake up because I couldn’t handle living in a world where everyone seemed to have a ‘how-to-adult’ guide, except me. It was draining and I was exhausted trying to live up to these neurotypical standards of existing.

For some reason I am yet to comprehend, people seem to think that when someone self-diagnoses it simply involves them watching one 15 second TikTok video and then just whacking a trendy label on themselves to seem quirky and interesting insert eye roll. As I am sure a lot of you do also, I have a very strong sense of justice and so this just fueled my advocacy for self-diagnosis. I began sharing the specifics around self-diagnosis and why it was so important. I wanted to bring light to the inaccessibility of a clinical diagnosis and why it just isn’t accessible to a lot of people.


Medical Misogyny and Racism.

Being a white cis woman living in England I hold a fair amount of privilege. However, the misogyny within medicine is horrifying. Women and other marginalised genders and races are often not taken seriously when they go to their doctor seeking advice and help. They are often turned away and dismissed as being ‘dramatic’ and told to ‘get over it’. Women are medically gaslit time and time again by both male and female doctors making it almost impossible to actually be taken seriously in the first instance, let alone move forwards with an actual assessment or receive support. Studies for ADHD and autism were predominantly carried out on cis white boys, which means so many communities of marginalised people were simply missed; some of the most affected being black women, trans people and other people of colour. This makes it exceedingly hard to even be referred for a clinical diagnosis in the first place, let alone also facing the other barriers below.


Dated understanding and poorly worded criteria.

The DSM-5 (diagnostic criteria for autism) reads in a very dated way. Even the language used doesn’t feel relevant anymore or only applies to children rather than adults. For example, the word ‘deficit’ is frequently used in the DSM-5 for autism and as with most assessments the condition is assessed on how much it affects others rather than how it affects the individual themselves. So even if you internally relate with all of the criteria, that doesn’t necessarily mean you will receive a diagnosis (or worse, you may be misdiagnosed - women are more likely to be misdiagnosed with personality disorders such as borderline personality disorder or OCD when in reality they could actually be autistic.) Not to mention, if you are a high masking autistic this is not taken into consideration during clinical assessment as they are looking for the stereotyped representation such as avoiding eye contact.


Long waiting lists & high costs.

In the UK, the NHS waiting list for an ADHD assessment can be up to two years long and one to three years long for an autism assessment. That is a long time to wait without answers or support, when you are experiencing sometimes debilitating symptoms and traits. This is why self-diagnosis can be lifesaving, because some people may not even have access to get on a waiting list, depending on where you are in the world. If someone wanted to seek a clinical self-diagnosis for their ADHD (one reason for this being access to medication) self-diagnosing in that gap whilst you wait can be life altering. You can begin to make accommodations, learn about yourself and your needs and start to tackle some of the built up shame from a lifetime of being mislabeled as lazy or stupid or clumsy.

In the UK it can cost hundreds if not thousands of pounds to get a private assessment and in America it can be up to $5,000 to get an assessment for autism. This is clearly inaccessible to a whole bunch of people. Most people do not have that kind of disposable income to throw at an assessment where they will likely feel very uncomfortable, infantilised and even misdiagnosed.

Self-diagnosing myself before I got my clinical ADHD diagnosis and self-diagnosing my autism has saved my life. I recognised, oh, okay, I'm not less, I'm not broken, I'm not wrong, my brain literally works differently and this world is not accessible for me. It's not that I am bad, it's that the world and the society we're expected to live in does not cater for brains like mine. When you self-diagnose/self-identify, you can begin to accommodate yourself, advocate for your needs and live with more compassion, grace and kindness towards yourself.

So in conclusion, self-diagnosis is completely, 100%, entirely valid. If I had not self-diagnosed, it would not have led to my clinical ADHD diagnosis. It would not have led to me understanding myself better and accommodating myself in this world that is not made for me or my brain. So it really is a case of preservation, of looking after yourself and valuing your health enough to stay alive.


Food for thought to finish with…

If you self-diagnose with something and then later down the line you realise, oh actually, do you know what, that's not me. There is no harm in that. You haven’t taken resources away from clinically diagnosed autistics or ADHDers. You've learned more about yourself and very, very likely if you think you are autistic or have ADHD and it turns out not to be, it’s highly likely something else under that neurodivergent umbrella.

Because, and here’s the kicker, neurotypical people do not spend months researching and wondering if they're autistic or if they have ADHD.

Thank you so much for reading and I hope this blog post provided you with some self-acceptance and a different perspective.


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Feb 09
Rated 5 out of 5 stars.

“Because, and here’s the kicker, neurotypical people do not spend months researching and wondering if they're autistic or if they have ADHD.”

Haha this hit a little too close to home, and made me feel so validated as someone desperately trying to discover why their brain is the way it is. This idea is also coincidentally what made me accept that I was queer. Thank you so much for this article, this message is truly invaluable. 🌈


Excellent points here, and I especially love the line "neurotypical people do not spend months researching and wondering if they're autistic or if they have ADHD" - that is one of those things it took me a long time to realise; I just assumed everyone tried to get to the bottom of why they were the way they are...! Many thanks for this.


Dec 18, 2023
Rated 5 out of 5 stars.

Great read on the benefits of self-diagnosis


Apr 03, 2023
Rated 5 out of 5 stars.

Thank you Georgia, amazing article 💜

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